I am crazy

last monday Queenie, hui san and de yang come to visit me, it was really so suprise to me. however i did made them dissapointed, because i am was so stupid and unable to handle the situation well. it was my fault, as bentong people i do not know much about it. then i go back to melacca at saturday and i reached there on about 5 hours journey. it was not fun at all when going back because the day keep raining and spoilt my mood. however, today i have come to de yang house to stay overnight we will celebrate de yang and mun yi birthday together. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DE YANG AND MUN YI O~

after we do our best in finals, it have come to holidays. 3 month holidays, it is a lot. 3 months time can use to be finish 1 semester. however, i going back to my home and i need to survive 3 months without any internet access again. disappointment are filling my heart now and follow by boredom soon.

final exam is only less than 48 hours from now. however, i am still on relax mood. a few day passed, i have promised to teach my friend and help in revision but after all i do not think i help much. it was because lot unexpected factors and i had sick. just feel like want to faint and flu. it was strange that i totally not stress at all with final exam especially i got one final public relation assignment to due within 36 hours. i am lost myself i think.

attention!!! this is not an article about who i do not like, it is about who am i. in my lifetime, i have a lot of friend, they all have their own way of thinking and belief. it is highlighted here, in the real world, there are none of us are wrong, it is just the matter how u accept their way of behaves. some of the criteria i do not like about some of my friends: 1. those who action come before thinking 2. backstabber 3. blackmailer 4. selfish-er 5. trouble maker 6. friendship "user" 7. rights abuser 8. copy cats it is common, because i believe most of us do not like to have those kind of friends. and it is unavoidable and cannot be ignore that i also have few of my friends, is so. but i will never reject to be friend with them, i have try to change them, but it seems like no influence at all. at the moment, i will only choose to avoid them and less contact with them just to self-protect.i have no choices it is because once upon a time, i experience it. i hurts lot. do anyo

last night i having buffey at Yuen, which organized by Neway for Neway staff. i take a lot of stuff to eat, especially chicken, those take and BBQ. i have ate whole plate, but is ok on that day, now only i feel so not well and hot inside. i also do not know why, but at the moment, i suddent have a thought. the thought is how good if got someone here to take care of me, for a long time ago i loss those feels. sometimes my friend told there are someone sure worried about me, is that possible? i do not think so. so sad about it, i knew what you thinking now, i honestly tell you that, they do not. it is hard to tell the whole stories. haiz... what i know for the moment is that i am very ill, until sleeping on the bed and blogging now. but who care? ^^ world is so real when other found that you are useless. they will no more sympathy or smiling when you are nothing for them.

for almost a month i only informed by my mom only a moment ago that my dad has injured when he is working. today my mom call me, and told me that my dad is recovered, i sudden feel so sad and useless. as a son, it is my responsible to concern about my parents, but it is almost a month! after a month only i know that my dad injured!? so funny, all is my fault. i am suppose to take care of my parents, wish that i can finish study asap so i can take care of my parents.

Is there something you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it? Yes, but and it is impossible for me to achieve it now. Knowing you had a 50 percent chance of winning and would be paid 10 times the amount of your bet if you won, what fraction of what you now own would you be willing to wager? I will take the risk of spending 25% to wager, no risk no miracle. Where is the most beautiful place in the world? is that dark hole included in this world? if not, then there is no where else. Of all the people close to you, whose death would you find most disturbing? the person who important to me. On an airplane you are talking pleasantly to a person of average appearance. Unexpectedly, the person offers you $10,000 for one night of sex. Knowing there is no danger and that payment is certain, would you accept the offer? No, cos i am not worth only $10000. One hot summer afternoon, while walking through a parking lot at a large shopping center, you notice a dog suffering bad

today might be the first and the last time i gather with all my friend, who also staff of neway karaoke. we having supper at station one which located in subang jaya, we having a lot fun and order each person one bottle carlsberg. i almost drunk at the moment i finish it at once, but do not know why, i feel better after a moment, strange right? it have been so much fun, but i feel not so enjoy because i going to leave this community soon, because i going to stop work as part time soon. it is because final exam coming, and i need to go back hometown soon. they really is gang of good friend of mine. the never complain when i done mistake, even they help me and support me. i hope all my friend like them, even they did not study much, but i do think that they really well educated and treat people with a kind heart. our happy time running out, and i am will never forget you all. what have left is only memories. keong, the waiter is the front and the big mussle de is alan, who work at kitch

just now i found that few meaningful sentences are written on my friend's blog " 一个人可以失去爱情, 因为当对方对你没有感觉的时候, 怎么留也留不住的.... 强求只会为彼此带来更大的伤害... 把话说开, 就算再不甘心, 再痛也是会撑得过去... 但被欺瞒, 被背叛, 那种滋味像是被人用线操空的木偶, 被人耍得团团转而已..." (Sim 2008, blog) =p it was really true about it, so i am thinking just to post it~ haha

it has been a long time i stay in this world, suddenly all thing around me become so weird until i do not know how to explain it. first, friend ignore me, betrayed me, and even worst hatred me. i feel so lost, why must the thing that i do not like the most find me and the thing i try so hard to maintain it leave me alone? why? can anyone explain to me? is that really true about if the more you protect something or someone the easier you will lose it?

nowadays, i have really busy with assignment and works. mountain of assignment and stress of working and times. mountain of assignment and the exam is just around the corner have causing me changes become more aggressive. added 1st time working has result multiple changes of my emotion and reaction. i began to lose mysel f . all my feeling and emotion changes around the environment and feeling and emotion have take over my mind, causing me done lot of mistake without realizes it. my house mate angry with me, my friend turn over me and i become hatred. is that what i want? i never have the time to think about it and just now only i realizes it was really my fault this time. i play card try to relax, but lose money and still giving those "good" face to my house mate. the most worst is dare i scold my house mate in front of my female friend and he still respect me and think on my position, i never think that i shall not do so, everyone have their own pride. i have knew it for

sometimes, it is not the matter of teaching and helping others is troublesome to me and i am those kind of person who hate troublesome so much. actually, i will only feel troublesome when i am was busying on something and especially when someone ask for my help never appreciate me and my help. however, at lease in the world there is a person that i know appreciate me. she is too cute, until thought of paying me money and buy me a phone. to be honestly, i get affected by her interesting offering. but then, after all i reject her offer, she make me think that finally i am lucky to get free thing (haha... a bit stupid right? but thats what i think in that moment). however, the most important reason is i am not deserve her offer, i cannot help her more, not guaranty that she will get full marks. and i have knew that something from her is the most worth to reward my effort, which is her happiness. it has been normal for her unfortunate experience and sad happening, so it is hard for me when

i had work out my 1st part time job in last week, it was on my thursday to friday. at the begining it was quite hard for me to manage the section in my responsible for the first and second day. however, on the third day i start to cooked with all the section in my work place because on the second day i am in charge for the whole section and i need to do it all by myself. since then, everyday after work i feel a bit tired, because i need to stand for about 7 to 8 hours per days. anyways, what to do? i do not have money what. XP

review about my lifestyle, and my parents or even my granparents lifestyle. i realise that i am was really selfish. i always thought from other views for those silly stuff but never thought of what other people situations. i am once again admit that i am was done a big mistake here, the feeling of proud and happyness brought me to the wrong minded. whenever i get the chance of being with handsome or pretty friends, drive nice car, and enjoy luxury and delicious foods, i would never thought that what is happening for my parents and grandparents. enjoying luxury goods life is best, but afterall it was not belongs to me. my parents work hard, save money hardly by only eat those cheap food just to afford my study and my daily lifes expenses. they save three day meal just to afford my one day expenses!!! it was my fault to being troublesome to you all. i was only realises it, i have miss the point where situation might affects people decision. when think about that it was ashame to tell tha

next week i am having mine 1 week break also can be considered as half sem break, study in business university is not an easy matter especially they are specialty in calculations and materiality (even holiday also need to calculate so accurate to maximum our study hours). however, the raya week still need to enjoy as my break and as one of the bigger festival which celebrate in Malaysia. on the other hands, i need to enjoy my holiday and celebrate raya with a mountain of assignments, which due on the week after my break. it is the sadness thing, when got holiday you cannot enjoy it at all, thats university life.

it was 12 september today, a suprised that i never expected from my friend. they have planned perfectly this time, it really give me a shock. Boon hua ask me to go his house cause my apartment do not have internet, and i ask for Hui san companion to help me in doing Quantity method assignment and she promised will come. after class, Boon hua say he want to cut his hair first before he go home, then 1 hours later Hui san say she do not want to follow le. at the moment i feel hopeless for my Qm assignment. anyways, 3 p.m something boon hua only go home, and firstly reach his house, i found out that mun yi came boon hua house already and it make me feel better cause i almost forgot that she got told me before to come boon hua house. at the same time, i did not realise that Queenie's car exist also until boon hua told me. Suddently i feel what a relieve. then after about 15 minute later boon hua ask me to cover my eye, and come to dining space and he ask me to open eye, and OMG! the wh

it was much more better my 19th birthday compare as before, it was the first time so many friend of mine wish me happy birthday. even though they do not give present but i am really feel so happy this year with their wish come from deep of their heart. however, sometimes i am still awaiting someone that special to me greed me with special way, atlease let me have a look at her. human was always greedy, when they get more they will still wish for more. i am still remember that last time i am so envy those who got people celebrate their birthday with, and i was so hatred with them. it is because when i say i am jealous with them but they told me that it was nothing and they added say present is important. i get stunned, wondering what the thing they are thinking? is that material is better than the heart? why a teenagers nowadays became so realistic and materialistic. however, i am was really happy that my friend wish me and some are celebrate with me, even though do not have much presen

it has been approxiamately 4 days without internet already, but for me it seems like 1 years i never online. depending too much on internet access make me uncomfortable without it existance. i only have a chance to online in library, however national day is tomorow thats mean the library will close for two more days, i wondering how i going to survive without internet access. I cannot do anything at all!!!

1: you have a lot responsible to take care of your brothers and sisters? your siblings? your parents? your grandparents? your friends? and yourself? 2: you like someone secretly who is impossible will like you? hate someone they totally do not know you hate them? 3: you think and care for someone who does not care and think for you? 4: being point finger or blame by your trusted friend yet you do nothing? 5: you force to pretending goods to someone u actually do not want to? 6: your friend only good to you when they need your help? 7: saw something you do not wish to saw, knew something that you do not wish to know? 8: given chance live longer but need to forgone the fortune in future?

this is the fouth week of my second semester, it was quite fun and boring also. do not know what i mean? well, even for myself i am also not sure. the closer you are the more confusing you are, it is because when you closer with someone or something, you will not see thing cleary because unconsiously the perspective of it force you to believe that is what you think are right. sometimes i might blame it is not fair to me, but when i think over and over again, i feel that the more i being dependant on other, i lose my mind or my own opinion on something. i sometimes might get influence by my best friends view, such as when they do not like someone, i also do the same. however, thanks to my mind, i realised my best friends not the best either my bad friend not bad at all. The advice here is my friend, never ever trust anyone or depends on others, you shall have you own view of point having you own desicion, because you live for yourself but not others; everything happens for its reason an

today is 2008-08-14 also in chinese calender is 07-14 and is thursday somemore. all is four, so good because it was my favourite number but some of my friend not really like the number of 4. the moon is red in colour [in my dream, haha] , so nice~

today is carmen birthday, wish her happy forever. actually we have celebrate with her earlier in saturday in the hakka restaurant which locate inside the sunway. after we have dinner, we actuualy plan to go neway to sing k, but failed because of they charge each person 44 that night not included tax and nuts. then we go to lunar bar, it was a sad thing that we not go in also due to reason where some of us not really interested to go in, then we drive the car go around the kl until 1 a.m in the morning only reach home. anyways, i can sense that carmen a bit strange, may be because her best friend, Queenie does not turn up [according to carmen] she feel a bit dissapointed. anyways, carmendo, start from today u older 1 more years already, must be think and view everything differently from other view lo and the most important is start think for yourself and your future lo. wish you happy forever~ ^^

bad thing everywhere and happen everydays, problems seems like fall in love with me. problems that among my friends, problems that inside myself, problems of my family and the problems of study keep wrapping me not allow me to escape. sometimes it was so hard for me even to take a breath. when only you will let me go? problems, problems, and problems.

a real world is nothing but just something so-called as "mental" events. we thought of the world present because of our minds. everything happen seems around us, but actually all this happen in our mind. if u do not believe, then can u tell me what is the world look like or what happen to the world when we are sleeping or died? human only uinderstand all of these when they are died, things are only appreciated when the time is too late, as usual the truth is cruel and only understand when the time is too late. is it logical? in Philosophy of Mind 2004, p.98, Heil claimed that " the logical behaviourist usually begins by pointing out what is perfectly true." am i? with the different feelings such as pain, happy, sad, angry and boring it make us experience lot; with the different thoughts, beliefs and religions, it enable us to keep learning from each other to live better? everything is possible with human intelligent and determination, the world only exist with huma

it was tommy's birthday tomorow, 2/8 but we celebrate earlier in today night. actually i facing financial crisis and not able to afford to go shogun for buffey. it was really expensive it costs me Rm60 for a meal??? however, i am not regret to attend the party, it was expensive but worth to eat. the food over there are very nice, and lot choices. it was a really fun party and i am wish that tommy's wish come true. [haha... even though i don know what is his wish]

wake up in 7 a.m, and i prepare to go college. but my first lecture start at 10? haha... i play maple first till then Boon Hua call me at 9.20 a.m then he fetch me to college. anyways, in lecture hall i am was excited at first, but then i turn up to sleep at half of my lecturer lecturing something we learned before? ok, it was quite good for morning class, but for the next class is my public relation lecture which held at petaling campus and it is 3 hours and 30 minute from the time i done with my lecture. it was suffering when the weather so hot and end up with some accident that the one suppose to lecturing us for public relation lecture absent and we wait innocently for 30 minute. what a "good" starting for my second sem.

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得 非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症) 因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷 漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一 阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。 所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人. 而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的“处女座的人最喜欢若即若离”。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好 最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。 正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。 他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是 今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。 关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美' 格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会

3 days already, my house internet access get blocked because noone going to pay the last 5 month internet fees? that is not my responsible, suppose is another housemate of mine to pay it. however, within these few day i am really suffering a lot. and one more problem that made me hatred is my roomate, i do not know how to comment about him. he is really annoying and childish everytimes, he is so troublesome, irresponsible and so on. whenever talk to him, i am also lazy to having such a stupid conversation with him. sometimes it is so hard to communicate with some people, because of their self-centered, selfish, irresponsible behavior. is that possible because i have some really good friend? everything happening around us seems to interrelated with many different and complicated ways by balancing each other at the same time. perfection is so hard, and it is almost impossible if as what the assumption said, perfection is impossible in these world which seek for balance. there are good pe

early in the morning, rain heavily but it did not stop my desire to go Petaling street with my SSTQ geng. (haha... funny but nice~) at first, Boon hua come and fetch me to carefour to park his car and we take ktm to kl sentral and then we walk around kl sentral to search something for buy. Boon huua have brought a pefume, then we wait Queenie and Hui san to reach. after that, we take monorail to petaling street and i have find out a lot of interesting stuff, unfortunately i do not have enough money to buy all, but i have learned a lot at there. there are a lot of different kind of people with different behaviour, it was really nice when observing their behavior. then we heading to sungai wang, i behave like the fly which lost the direction but luckily got "gps" (Hui san) then we reach safely. when on the way going home, i just remember that we have left something at petaling street, all is my fault because i suppose to remember it before we heading to sungai wang. ( a bit sa

friday, i back to my hometown, Bentong. the first time i back after 3 month? homesick? it is a good question that a lot of my friend asking me when talk about Bentong. i going home not to cure or recover from whatever that call homesick, i am going home is just to make sure my parents still in good condition and to let them have a look of how i am was changing. i am not actually those kind of emo person (sometimes) at the moment never expect me to behave childish to say that i miss my home or whatever that is the way i am. i wish someday they will be someone to understand me. the last word from me, "it is really hard to pretend someone other than yourself"

with Queenie, Boon hua and Hui san go sunway and watch movie in afternoon. we then going Queenie's house to park Boon hua car and play with Queenie's "cute" car, me and Boon hua enjoy a lot with that car. [haha, when i driving i speed up till Boon hua tears out] then Queenie fetch us go kajang to eat satay. it was the first time i eat Kajang's satay, it really nice.

wow, today was really my lucky day. i go sing K with my friend, it was really nice, and special for me? anyway, this was not the first time but it was really nice because only me, Queenie, Boon Hua and Hui San [the first time Neways provided each mic for all of us, but it keep no batery...=.=]. we all having a lot of fun, take a lot of picture also. after that we going to have a walk at Subang Lake [take picture again... >u<]. and lot more activities, but i lazy to mention all because i am lazy. Haha...

Finally final exam is finished!!! This time is the first time that i feel not happy after exam, do not know what reason. When all this happened i am feel like nothing to do and lost. I knew it was mean that i seems like live to exam, to be honestly i admit the other personality is live for this purpose. Sometimes i am not even know what should i do. During the exam period as in exam week, i spend most of the time at Boon Hua house, i revise, revise and revise. Life seems so meaningless for me. However, within this period, i have think about how to earn lot of money. It started when i jogging with Boon Hua around his housing area, and i found out that all the people live at that Kota Kemuning Hills is so rich. They are richer than what i have imagined, i wondering how to become like them, how i only able to be same standard with them? Another me is so desperate to become like them and can be do anything just to be like them.

11st of June is Boon Hua birthday, we had give him a lot of supprise. Early morning, me, bh's friends and bh go Little Taiwan have our lunch, then when we finish and going to leave, at the same time Princess bring a cake which brought from Secret Recipe and celebrate with bh, he really supprise. After that we go to library to do revision, and i am playing Maple. [Too Ego...XD] At the night, bh's friend said want to have dinner with him and Mun Yi, then Mun Yi ask me to join. At the moment, i am feel like a bit strange and on our way walk to TBS [bh's friend fetch us thr, but change location cos she take wrong way] me and bh saw Tommy, Mak, Carmen and Hui San at Tommy's hostel, then i thought they prepare the gifts to bh [ a Billabong cloths which we buy last month] and the thing i wondering is when they will only give the gift to bh? But then i do not want to think much about it because a bit tired, due to reason i am only eat bread for my lunch at Little Taiwan. Then w

What Siah Tiong Yao Means You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Wake up early in the morning, prepare to go library to do revision with Boon Hua and Hui San. However, few minute after wake up Boon Hua call me said he might be late then i go library at 10 but it was public holiday, so embarrased. When i am going back i meet BH at ground floor of library he told me that is ok, he will go my house to play DOTA 1st. He added that 12 he will go Sunway Piramid, he will bring me also and introduce me a friend of him and HS, who also a best friend of Carmen. It was unfortunately for BH cause he accidently hit something, but he manage to clean the track [of course not totally]. Then the interest part is the first time when i meet Queenie, the first image of her to me is that she is mature, cool and nice. She bring her sister with her that time, but when get with her for longer time i observe that she is controlled by her sister. Firstly i shy to talk and only observing them [BH,HS and Queenie] but then do not know the reason, i began to talk with her. After

After suffering for 2 days, with my body swelling 150% than my normal size, i have finally recovered. Thanks a lot to my friends, dad, uncles, and my laptop, who support me when i am was sick. Because of the illness i cannot sleep well for 2 days, and because of my body swelling bigger, some part of my cuts are spilt into two and body and skin is pain. However , i am feel very happy that i not need depends on any medicine to cured and it was nice, even some of my friend who taking injection and medicine still haven recover yet.

last night, i got a strange illness which looks similiar with allergy, but in white color version it become more serious when i going to sleep. in the midnight of thursday, i am totally cannot sleep because of this illness, it feeling like burn my body, itchy and pain. the feeling is more worst than anything, i am think go hell better. but it give me a brief image how i will look like when i become fat, i looks more handsome [hehe...to be honestly quite handsome de lo]. may be it just simply of sick, or it might because of something else, such as punishment or curse.

nearly, the image of chaos that i saw on that days is disturbing my mind. it is hard to believe what i have saw, it was so terrible until i cannot forget about it till now. what does it mean? even myself also do not know about it. sometimes i found out a lot of thing, but i am still cannot identified which is true and which is false; which is real and which is fake. the more i think about it the more confusing i am. last night is the 1st time i step in to cinema, a lot of 1st time is uncountable, is that any meaning? a movie that i watch is so meaningless to me, it is one of the horror movie, but for me there are a lot of question marks here and there. i wondering, the end of the other end is more complicate or is more easy; the more i observe, i found out i knew more, but sometimes i feel that the more i observe, i found out i knew lesser. anyone please tell me what is happening around us now? the more i want to reach perfection the more i saw the weakness? chaos? confusion? and is th

Atlast, no more assignment for this sem, but then i need to get prepare for this sem final exam. 3 more week to go, i thought just a while i enter 1st sem, who knows it will end up soon. It was true that everything have weakness, i discover the weakness of all my "geng" member. Although one of them is mr nice guys i also knew what his weakness. haha... However, i am still hope our friendship will not end forever. And, good luck to you all [ofcos me also la... >u<] for the final exam. No! is good luck for everything what we do. ^^

Finally, most of the assignment are duel. Wake up at 8 am, but sleep back till 10.30. After a series studying of the guideline for ADA assignment, i am still cannt get what it want, especially when i refer to the template B it make me more confusing. I am feel totally lost in somewhere that i do not know where is it. From morning until evening i am still duno what have i done for the whole day.

What can i do? Nearly I am so stress of my assignment, total requirements are at lease 6000 words assignment need to due on the same day. OMG, all due in next tuesday. Sorry to my dear friend, today because I am was too stress I be cool. Sorry ya, Eng Sim and Phang. Please forgive me... I am really cannot hold more longer. Wish that everything end faster.

Just finish my group assignment part for comparison between the issue and text. At the same time during i doing my power point, I am comparing my life last year and current year. Last year I am always stick with my house mate, it was not because of I like my house mate it was just because I do not like my course mate. My course mate are so realistic, and i do not like the way of they treat people, it was so fake and self-centered. They only will treat u nice and with u only with condition when u are useful to them and they need your help. Compare with current year, I am feel so relieve. It was because that I have meet my current course mate. I am will not admit that they are 100% nice and kind, sometimes they might do something we never expect, but for sure that they will ever never purposely treat us not good and be worse than my last year course mate. And this current year I have began to keep a distance with my house mate, because they are not as good as my true friends [current cou

I am leave lecture hall during the break time because I am think that it was pointless. Then i go library to meet Boon Hua, and wait for Hui San, then we go to have our breakfast. 1 o'clock we go sing karaoke [Boon Hua, Hui San, Carmen, Tommy, Mak, Victor and Jordon]. It was so fun, we back at 7 p.m. I am feel so happy today. However, I am feel like a bit weird, just like something bad will happen. It was true, somehow my house mate pour water on my phone, laptop, and pencil box. Luckily my laptop survive, but my phone spoil already. Feel so sad, i loss all my friend 's number. T.T...

Just finish my lecture for marketing, me and Carmen go find Tommy, then we have lunch together. At 3 p.m we have our Managing Communicating Business [MCB], I pass by notice board at fifth floor and realized that I am really get lucky draw for the career talk last time, actually my friend told me yesterday just I do not believe them. After MCB tutorial class which end up 30 minute early than normal because of our tutor are sick, and we go to Mid-Valley. In Mid-Valley we [Christina, Tommy, Carmen, Boon Hua and Hui San] go a lot of shop, and i realized that Christina knew so much on luxury products [next time if i do not know marketing stuff about luxury goods sure i know who to find. Hehe...joking only]. We went to other shop and Zara shop. Inside the Zara shop me and Tommy go test cloth at the male section and Christina, Carmen and Hui San went to female section [Boon Hua is missing at that time, and I am searching him and failed]. I find a jacket that i like quite much, but then when i

Today Christina have ask me a very meaningful question, she ask who do u trust the most in this world? Is that your own father? This question really trick me. Even myself also unable to determined it, because I am not even trust my own family. Funny right? This remind me about an old friend of mine [Wai Sim] she have said that even believe, in between still have a word of lie. What is believe? Is that really important? For me, it was really important to determined are the person responsible or not. The level of trustworthy is based on the level of responsibility. Need a person to believe another they must take the first step, but most of the time people will get use of this chance to modified, in another word to use this naive person. In this world there are nothing perfect, no one dare to said that he or she will totally trust a person. Responsibility are needed to believe a person. What do i mean? Nice question to ask. When you trust someone you need to responsible for your action of

A friend of mine told me this and i very agree with her, because last time another group friends of mine behave same and even my house mate. She say: 原来一直以来我都错了 , 原来在这个世界上已经没有了 " 好人 " 了 , 他们都绝种了 。 原来不是你对人家好他就会对回你好的 ； 天真的是我自己而已 , 明明他已经摆出一副很讨厌你的样子了 , 那为什么那还要去惹他们啊 ? 我知道 , 这一切都是我自己拿来的 , 你当人家是好朋友 , 可是人家呢 ?人家当你 屎都不如啊 ... 熟语说得好 ：" 飞蛾扑火 , 自取灭亡 "。 呵 ... 我终于都了解了 ... 无论你对人家多好 , 他们始终当你是他们的 " 功课棋子 " 而已咯 , 现在这个这么现实的社会里已经没人当谁是好朋友了 , 现在这个社会中 , 你不害人就轮到别人害你了 。 话说回来我还要感谢他们让我上了这一堂宝贵的课 , 不然我可能到现在还是傻呼呼的去对别人很好 , 当他们是宝 , 当他们是最重要 , 最要好的朋友呢 。 从这一分这一秒开始 , 我发誓 , 我不会再那么傻 , 那么白痴 , 在这个世界上再也没有一个人能让我相信 , 让我依赖了 。 How much u know about human beings behavior and the reality? I knew a lot~ For those my true friends, take care~ I am hatred with this kind of situation already and i knew it was hurts.

My dad, suppose come here to visit me today, because he have one day holiday, but he is not coming because my mom have something to deal with. Because of this, I have miss a lot of opportunities to being with my friend. Thus I am only able to go no where, it was really bored.

Thursday is coming, but all assignments not done yet. All about thousands of words, I am so lazy to start it. Wasting my time to enjoy the sunset, sounds nice, but in deep of my heart is such a disappointed and lonely. I am now so desperate to buy a new phone so can I take picture and record something memorable. The management first assignment, I have failed, but my friend Kai Boon never trusted that is truth, because I am the one guide him to finish his assignment and he get distinction yet I failed. Sometimes, things just happen unpredictable, nobody know what will happen next, everything can become upside down may be just in a moment and no one will be able to explain why.

The assignment result for management have came out, I found out that i get grade F1 [Failed, grade before pass]. When I knew that i failed, I am felt so bad. At the moment, I am totally heart broken. What a sad day...

Start my second individual assignment of marketing at 11 a.m, but about 15 minute later i fall asleep [like a pig]. Then i only wake up at 3 p.m to have my lunch, and after that i continue doing my assignment at 4 p.m then done at 5 p.m something. Anyways, my whole body's muscle still pain and not yet recover because the beg i brought back yesterday at lease 20 kg. T.T...

After I have attended the prize giving ceremony, I get the grand prize [nothing difference just have extra files and pen. =.=]. In the evening, I have to rush back to Bentong, I had to bring two heavy bag which contain my books and laptop walk to ktm station, really very tired till all my cloths wet of my secondly school friend at Titiwangsa bus station.

I follow my friends Carmen, Hui San, Tommy, Juan and Phang go sing karaoke at New Way after we go for the career talks [main purpose =take goodies. Hehe...] then we go singing at karaoke from 2 something till 7 something o. I observe that Phang always sing those sad songs, I also do not know why, all those sad songs made my mood down. I am very tired, go there for listening them sing and of course I sing also. Do not knowing the reason, tis is the second time i go karaoke but I do not have mood to enjoy. However, we have take some picture at there.

Morning after marketing lecture once again i follow Boon Hua's BMW X5 to USJ. This time Tom [Boon Hua] bring me to USJ to have my lunch -Dim Sum. A lot of Tom's friend are following [female friends], two cars use to fetch 7 people each car. Haha... There are 12 girls and 2 guys included me, we have order a lot of Dim Sum, porridge and some of us order Loh Mai Kai. It was so long period of time I never eat Dim Sum already, all the foods is so nice. Anyways, while I am enjoy my foods I am realized some of my friend very quiet and I am worried of her. So happy can have my lunch with so many friends. And then I am think it was a bit expensive, Rm 10. However I am satisfied with it because of who I have my lunch with not because of the meal, but the meal is not bad.

Just so lonely as normal, Tuesday is always the day of marketing short quiz. My short quiz's result is so inconstant, the first is 1.5, then 3.5, follow by 1, fourth week was only o.5 [cry] but then last week is 4.5 and for this week I am confidence to get higher score. At the same time, we have our group presentation as well. A friend of mine, Christina Lim I am was impress with her presentation, she is my group representative for this week. The day before the presentation she told me she not sure what to do, then I am a bit worried for her, but she able to present it well. No wonder she was one of the highest scorer for our first individual assignment among all UniSA students. After marketing tutorial class, we have two hours of block lectures, then we are given a period of three hours break time [It was so long] and I am only the one walk lonely because I loss all my friend's track, and some of them are having fun at Carefour [a hypermarket in Subang Jaya]. So sad to know ab

T.T... Lecturer finish at 7 p.m. very tired. Every break time sure have students leave the lecture hall, where got people can hold on for 6 hours lecture? Anyways, I am attend it until the lecture ends, so tired. During the first 2 lecture hours, I am admit that I am fall asleep. Haha... But then the next 4 hours, I am searching for someone every minute unawareness and remind about what my friend told me in the morning. On the same time, I realized that i have a extra ordinary ability. I able to searching for a person, listening to lecture, response to lecturer, analysis people personality and breathing at the same time. I feel so surprising the first time i can pay attention totally to all the thing in a same time, but one thing i do not like about it is concentrate on so many thing in a same time made me feel like time run so fast. So fast i need to leave already. Haiz...

I am happy that Mak have found back his watch and a girl that i like chat with me today. Anyways, I am now feel very tension because I am just realized that i have a lot of homeworks have not done and do not know how was my group preparation for this week marketing presentation going on. So stress, I am wish that if I have extra time to settle all my homeworks and assignment.

Today i swim again [actually is playing water only, because i do not know how to swim.XD] but then a while only. A girl, who i do not know how she looks like and who is she suddenly msn me and send message saids that she miss me and like me. It was not the first time and it made me so hatreds, is that a joke or whatever? I thinking that she is cheating me. Haiz... Why the one we hope they will say like us never said so but always there are other said so to us? Then my new roommate who just arrive here last night, go shopping with friends for whole day [wai kye] he is such a nice guys but i can guess how lonely he was when mixed up with all house mate that converse in other language. Anyways, i am going to spend more time with him so he not lonely, at lease thats what i can do to decrease his loneliness.

Today I have presentation, and I saw something disgusting and get scold by someone a bit dumb. After that, me and my friend [ Tommy, Mak , and Juan] went back to Raub to settle some problems. Then we stop by Mak's village and we able to spend our time in the half waterfall river to play water. At the same time, Mak's old friend as known as Roti and Chui Ting also follow, we have such a fun time to enjoy, it was so nice until i do not want to leave~ After that, on our way to Subang they have a visit to my house. Anyways, it end up with Mak's watch missing. Haiz...

Haiz... Today i am actually do not want to wake up, but i am still wake up go to library do my management assignment and for discussion for the Starbucks assignment. However, only two girls of my group turn up in library. Sometimes, i wondering what i have done until she so do not like me, anyways is ok. Today is so lonely, none of my group member attend the lecture today so i have to sit myself; the worst thing ever happen is I chosen by teacher to read out a text. Anyways, one thing that i can convince myself to not disappointed was that i meet a girl and she got online today. She is so cute, I m feel not so bad mood already when i meet her even for a second, and she on lining and we chat a lot, it made me feel so much better~ i know more about her today~ hehe~

16/4, wednesday Finally, i have my own blog. Anyways, one more thing i not satisfied , I feel that my blog url a bit weird and not perfect enough. Thanks to Carmen, she help me a lot in naming of my blog. She is true frinend of mine, first time there are a person helping me so much in my responsibility on something and caring of me. However, i am wondering what to do with this blog afterall. I never write blog before, so now a bit crazy.