I am crazy

the best drink i ever drink before~ do not know what is it? no, this is not a mineral water, but a lemon drink. the original lemon drink i have drink it >u U

今天是星期四，这已经是第四天在文东了，因为星期日我和家人去五叔的家在Port Dickson。在那儿，全都很开心尤其是那些小孩子，可我觉得没什么好开心的，或许我已经不再是那调皮坏蛋的啊耀了，或许经历太多了有点累了，也觉得日子很无趣。人总是很矛盾，很虚假，我说我没感情了，没有任何希望了；但我自己却时常为了些小事耿耿于怀，说却总是希望着什么。我常常中说自己没得救了，不想在现实留下任何关于我的痕迹，可是我去拚命的做得更好希望有人了解我，希望有谁会珍惜我。我望着窗外，回忆起一些往事，可是发现原来我得开心事是如此的少，期待着……我到低期待什么？我……到底想怎样啊？很可悲对吧？现在连那个从我回来那么久都不要下雨的天空竟然都下起雨来了，这是说它也同情我吗？或是想告诉我会有奇迹的？ =[

处女座表面上快乐开朗，其实心里多半比较痛苦。他们似乎可以轻易地忘掉昨夜痛彻心扉的哭声，不知不觉地进入第二天乐得合不拢嘴的状态。处女座的痛苦多来自于家庭的不合和在友情、爱情上的失意。处女座表面上可能会给人小气自私的形象，但实则是不了解他们的人的误识。他们如果显得很小气的话，也许是因为他们的极其慷慨曾招来些对自己的伤害，因此他们在找到　一个真正他们认为值得一交的朋友，而那个人也对他无半颗私心前，只能是被自己天生的心软、善良牵制着，畏缩地给予别人帮助，以致于形成小家子的假象。唉~~~~ 处女座的友情：，他们渴望精神上的交流、内心世界的彼此了解，他们视友情为达到这一目的的最不可缺少的途径。处女座很少有向亲人 吐露心声的机会，因此，朋友在处女座眼中更是显得尤为重要。而交上处女座的人也绝不会吃亏，但处女座的人一生却很难得能遇到知心的朋友，这也就使处女座的 人的心事不断的积压下来，久而久之，他们很少向别人透露自己的心事，这种痛苦源于他们需要一个100%的纯洁友情。当处女的朋友又搭上另一个人时，他们只 会沉默，用拼命工作之类的事情来麻木自己，掩盖自己的寂寞和失落。庆幸的是处女座是一个非常和平、不记仇的星座，他们不会为此对你进行报复，即使为之，那 份量也是微不足道的。因此作为处女的朋友，如果俩人的确是难得知己的话，最好你应该花大部分时和处女座者相处去让他们明这一点，而不是莫名其妙地甩下他们又搭上另一个人。 处女座的爱情：处女座的爱情多被定义为内向、害羞。而我却不这么认为，他们内心其实很狂热，而且由于他们在为人处事方面的IQ低得要死，甚至完全可以是像《一吻定情》中相原琴子一样的人。由于他们不轻易表露自己的痛苦，整日被张笑脸笼罩这，活泼的形象会浮现于他们爱情世界的表面中。处女座的我行我素作风是因为处女座会认为他们本是为寂寞而生，没有人能真正了解他们。自己认为对的事他都可以去做，不屑别人的非言非语，继续表面快乐的生活。而当仰望着朗朗星空时，处女座者却是一个伤感者的角色，他们爱听悲伤的音乐、喜欢广阔的东西，诸如：浩瀚的星空、无垠的沙漠和大海。这时，微微凉风掠过，处女座甚至会觉得这才是人生做到的享受， 处女座的人会沉淀白天对爱情的一股傻劲，着实地看清现实的爱情，不免一阵唉声叹气，这时你会惊讶地发现平日蹦跳不停的处女座也有安静、忧郁的一面。在爱情上，处女座的人既有古典保守的一面，也绝对有开放、爽...

yesterday i came back Bentong, and i saw a new species of interesting new invertebrate that i never see before. then at the afternoon we go to Fraser hill, at the journey going there i am the driver but when coming back i felt tired and my dad be the driver, and then half way my brother say want to drive then he get what he wished. run out of time to revision already, let the see the picture. the weird invertebrate with head of ants, mouth of spider, legs of cockroaches and body of centipedes. anyways, i do not know what it is but according to it's shape and it's specific organ and outlook, i guess it is somehow ate cockroaches and should be no harm to human. see, for me it was so interesting and perfect, hope can feed it. but my parents not allow, and need to revision for exam no time for research it. what a waste, i scare i cannot find it anymore. sad... shops at Fraser hill, before it should be lot shop at here, but it still in renovating so i do not find any thing to buy he...

on some day of year 2008, we became friend. it was so important you know, i know it was hard to get a friend. thats why, i hope that it was a joy for you to having your birthday with meand others. thus, tung boon hua , HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to you ! i really having fun in your party and learn what the feeling of drink whole tin of beer once [totally not same with wine, so lot gas make me feel like too full until wanna vomit.] it was satisfied me, luckily i choos the right decision to celebrate with you, if i go back hometown on thursday sure i will regret it. because, back hometown can be anytime, but your birthday really one year once only. haha... Happy Birthday o~ keep on working hard by yourself for what you want, hope that you will more independant as you grow older..? and good luck for you final also ya~

sorry darius for spell your name wrongly in previous post, as it was because i am having short term memory lost what, u knew that right? one sem once, finally i get the got chance and reason to go back bentong. tomorow i will going back to bentong for a few day trip to study hard perhaps in relax mode. wish that what i plan is going well. however, i still feel tha what a waste for me because unable to go back teluk intan. sad case, anyways sad thing always have happy events as a companion. may be afterall it was a good for me, who knows? and i will miss your guys, for those only miss me also. haha, it was not easy for me to throw all my responsible at subang for a moment, but i do not want to the responsible become my burden, i wish it will be my philopsophy. miss ya~

some might thought that a word of 'sorry' can cover all the fault they have done, do you really think that 'sorry' is so strong to convience someone that u will not repeat the action again? then i would like to do the same also, 'sorry' sorry not everything. i knew, some feel guilty only say sorry to make themself feel beter. instead of saying sorry but never change; i prefer action taken even though no sorry given. if you knew you are wrong then prove your awareness with action, change the way you behave become better. so do i, i perhaps sometimes most likely to say sorry but it is for all those small cases. in big deal, i would not likely to say sorry because i knew what i did was wrong but i too shy and ashame of myself to say sorry to your all. i will change myself, but i still need to say sorry here, to all those my friends because of my misbehave and stupid action. you want scold me just do it, i will accept it for what have i done. it was my responsible o...

this week i m rushing to finish all my revision, but now only realize that i got one more week time to revise. it was because the final exam is start on 24/6 but i misthought that next week is 24/6. once today my friend told me now is 9/6 then i began feel weird, then check my phone's calender. and the first reaction of me is: Oh My God!!! i totally believe that next week is final exam, but the truth is i got one more week! how stupid am i. haiz... anyways, it make me more suffer because the final come late and the period i need to suffer had extended...

next week is our [those taking unisa course in taylors] final exam le, here to wish good luck to all of us~ wish that we all can handle the exam well~ Gam Ba Teh for revision lo, those who have not start revise, now is the time! +U +U~ ^^

nowadays keep busy with some sort of assignment which as known as DSM assignment. it is an assignment that i do not know what to write and what to do. almost whole week reading about all those economy stuff feel like out of the tracks for the DSM [derivatives and securities market] assignment. have no idea how to do, so need to stay at subang to do it! it was shit! one year once i go back teluk intan, but i had miss the chance. feel so guilty because not fulfilling the responsible as a grandson to go back visit my grandparents. I am so hate to being irresponsible, really HATE ! but who understand my feeling? go college, always i m the first one say hi to others but noone would say hi to me at first except for some friends. when others chat, the words they talk to me only is hi and bye nothing else. some even more selfish, always seek for me only need helps, if nothing then i m invisible. there are different of them, some are when i ask for their help (not always wei, you thought i m s...

last two or three day before, tommy and carmen move to new house [actually can consider old house also as where tommy did stayed there before] however, i wondering how come tommy got such a huge amount of stuff can fit in his previous room but cannot fit in in his new room which is bigger than the previous one. it was exhausted to move all those stuf, but there is an interesting stuff i found out at the 99 speedy market view the picture~ do you realized that? the water PH is  9... i do not is it true, but quite interesting that got such PH of water sold for customer...

on 28 may, with princess, patricia, rachel, tommy, carmen, deyang and huisan go watch terminator salvation, the movie was quite nice. somehow, we having another plan for rachel at night. Rachel, first of all i wishes you enjoy your special 'birthday celebration' prepared by us which is celebrate earlier as you need to go back johore on your actual birthday~ here is the photo~ rather than i speak, i think better let the photo speak. hope it was one of your nice memories~ the ticket of terminator salvation~ Rachel's Cake, very delicious o~ still need to do assignment when outing~ Leng lui gang~ i like this picture the most~ and lastly, once again wishes Rachel enjoying the birthday celebration by us~ stay pretty o~ ^^

It is a blur wednesday morning, i woke up at 7.50a.m with a thought that i going to late for my DSM lecture, then prepare myself get to college and reached by 8.35 a.m. however, i realized that there was no lecture, it was so ashaming. after having my BCB tutorial at 10 to 12, i saw li min gangs at mezz floor then i mar try 'color' my nails, it was quite interesting and touching cause li min, miera and fei ling [sorry ya, if i speel ur name wrongly feel free to inform me if there are mistake~] help my with it. at first all my nails is so colorful and atract others attention ^3^ but then they help me to remove some, and left some. here it is the final, and now its still on my nails~ hehe~ see the dark red color and black color on my right hand's nails~ for my left hand, there are orange and pearl color, nice isn't? thanks you girls~ thanks for helping me~ haha~ it was nice and i like it~ ^^

Assignment whole week, i think may be soon i will fall in love for assignment, but definitely not now. have been long time never log in to edit my own blog, because nowadays need to accompany my dear 'assignment'. so now only realized i m tagged by li min~ hehe~ 1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed? sorry, noone wanna kiss me lol~ 2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning? sleepy.. 3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with? i forgot le.. i very seldom take photo.. 4. Would you consider yourself spoiled? depends on situation, perhaps? 5. Will you ever donate blood? definately, if i m not low blood pressure... 6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? definately, YES!!! quite lot... 7. Do you want someone to be dead? i have no right to wish someone to died or curse others... 8. What does your last text message say? i m eating now.. sorry for late reply~ 9. What are you thinking right now? answer for this ques...

i just found out there is a new song, by BY2. a strange name for them, they are a twins and a singer as well. i get to know them because that i heard their voice is sounds alike to one friend of mine, princess~ don't those who knew princess as well realize that? anyway, listen to the song ba~

Something. what is something? is it a thing? or a thought? everything exist because we can think, something happen and become something because we think something so and understand it. what something become if we cannot think? is it still exist? we think, thats why got lot of thing such as happines, laptop, friends and all other things that exist in the world. thing can be material, feeling and nothing it depends on what we think. even there is nothing, but it is still something exist at, in with nothing. do you understand what i think? if you do not, please do not think too much or u will be crazy like me also. thing, is a think and without think there is nothing.

Test 1: Stevon 已參加 你是神明,妖精,惡魔或是天使? 測驗，結果是 妖精 你這一生可說是人的木偶，天天都是比一些面目可憎的人的委託，做你多麼不頁意的事，心裡永遠有說不出的憎恨。 Test 2: Stevon 已參加 你外表容易給人什麼假像 測驗，結果是 很聽話、很老實、很乖巧 但實際上相處之後，才知道你原則很多，很多規矩是不能打破的，跟別人相處時，是有很多地方是不能牴觸的 Test 3: Stevon 已參加 性格测试 測驗，結果是 害羞个性 你是一个害羞的人. 当处在人多的场合时, 你便感觉不自在. 你常会觉得你身心不一. 或觉得自己生错了时代. 你实际上比你看起来要聪明很多. 但是, 你为了不想让别人知道这点, 所以你将自己的外表打扮成愚蠢模样. 你大概是属于深藏不露的人. 你有一颗可以容纳很多想法的‘心’ 可是也因为你有太多想法, 所以你的思绪常堵车 你拥有艺术方面的天分 你喜欢的音乐类型是: 描写爱情、 为爱情伤心、失恋的歌 你喜欢的电影: 铁达尼号 总有一些时候, 你宁可待在家里享受一个人的自在也不愿去面一些讨厌的人们 看来丘比特曾经开过你一场玩笑! 有人曾伤过你的心! i had taken these three test, and i found it quite correct about me.. but the last test i did not copy the last sentences cause it is not accurate. haha...

Yesterday my parent brought me to my 2nd uncle's house, which allocated at Puchong. it was interesting that my dear cousin brother gave me cute stuff, something like transformer can change form. i like those stuff the most, thanks u dear cousin~ Before it transform, it is a box. ten ten ten ten, and now it become speakers already. Cool right?

yesterday, before i slept i had listened to a song and watch it's MV which introduced by Evelyn~ it was really nice~ ^^ so i upload it and share with you all at here~ enjoy the MV~

On 25th april, saturday i came back to bentong, pahang where has been my hometown since i m was about 3 years old. i often been asked by my friends, why don't i just come back every weekend since the journey just take approximately less than 2 hours with public transports, didn't i feel homesick, and lot such kind of question. and i am home now! yeah~ see my happiness? never mind, just forget about it. but since when i am back, i faced some problems where my lovely locker where kept my 'treasures' are becoming ants home!!! oh my god... at the moments i checked my locker, due to the reason where the ants is extremely huge in amount and too terrible so i did not take the photo, so it won scare you guys [impossible you ask me to take each photo of its right? to been fair to others ants] so i only took the photo after i 'took care' of them~ The place where ants use to live before~ where the ants goes? of cause, it shown that my efficiency and effectiveness of what ...

sorry for no new posts for my blog, actually there are some events i have not post up yet, so there are new posts yet. the first big events will be hui san birthday events, we had celebrated with her on 11st and 12nd of april. the second big events is mak birthday, for the 1st year he is one of my important friend, and he is such a nice guys to me, due to some reason he cannot make celebration on the 'day' of him, so we celebrated it on the second day. however, because i get no photos for these posts so i have not updated my blog yet. sorry if u thought that i not going to posts,even though i may not be able to posts it, but it already became part of my memories. all the fun we had together, all the trouble we faced together, and all the memories of all my gang, i will not forget until the last breaths. God Bless You All~

Joycelyn , Happy Birthday o~ Sorry for because no present for you, because this month i overbudgeted already. haha, hope you can forgive me o. i am here to wish you happy always as the Joycelyn i meet and all your wishes come true o. ^^

lately i realized that i keep complaining others people, but i know i should figure what have i done. in what way, i am totally no ideas about what have i done, so i wish to ask for my friends help. my trusted friend, i am here kindly to seek for your help, would you all for those who viewed my profile to comment me on anything that you all do not satisfied about me? just anything? behavior? personality? study? mistake that i have done? please, be honest to comment me all, please do not hide anything from me. i will feel hurts if my friends did hiding from me, it showing that i cannot be trusted by you all. please, i swear i will not angry or not happy with any comment u have made, i will be accept it happily, thanks u~ ^^ Friend Forever!

new semester start, i have already 20 years old and enter my second years degree. starting of third semester making me feel nervous and lost. everyone start to have their own dreams to achieve, choosing different ways. and i am the one stand still at the same place, am i missing someone? not willing to let go? or i am just do not know where should i go? No, since i am was form 4 i have planned my future well, i can definitely confirm where i should go and what i going to do. Correct, i have already understand that each semester forward, it become more difficult and confusing. however, i knew i am weak and helpless even though how much i have done. life never easy for me, but every times when i feel depress and tension i would make myself feel better by assuming that might be someday soon i am the most successful among all my friend, it sounds funny. but it really make me feel better, because i know it was really funny and i cannot ignore this joke! families, getting older and supportiv...

Christina & Jo Ann, sorry o~ may be a bit late, and i am just realized i do not have your picture to post here, so paiseh, hope you will forgive me. Anyways, i am here to wish you Happy birthday to you both o~ wish you both happy forever~ ^^

情人节， 到现在我还是不明白他的含义。 回想一下， 我活了20年， 过了整整20年的情人节， 人都长大了， 思想成熟了， 朋友都说我学习能力好， 可是我怎么学也学不懂情人节的含义。 写了那么多，连我也不懂我要写什么？我只是纯粹的想整新我的部落个还是要写情人节的含义？好多好多的疑问，好多好多的烦恼，想写也写不出，是因为从来没谈过恋爱的关系吗？所以才写不出情人节对我来说是什么？还是因为我不懂怎么爱， 珍惜？ 等失去了才明白失去什么吗？ 我……到底在想什么…… 或许我该先放下这个问题，想不通就待会儿想并不是忘了它[de yang]。也许这样做会好过些。 情人节哦，因该是开心的节日，我不快乐就好，别人是应该快乐的所以就将所有不快乐的给我一个人承担吧，世界才会平衡嘛~或许我还不是时候庆祝吧。但是我还是要祝福你们全部情人节快乐，一定要好好珍惜你的另一半哦~人常常都会失去了才后悔，所以就的珍惜~

new year has passed, i miss lot of things such as the tension of studying, having assignment? and some of the fun together with my gang of DJ and friends. however, i also miss about my family and grandparents also. most of them seems older, i am also start worrying are their health. am i emo-ing now? i also not sure, as people the more you think you understand something or someone, the more you not understand it or them. the conclusion that i learn from my pattern pattern DJ Yang is great success come with great sacrifice. Thanks man~

Chinese new year just around the corner, my mother also busying on making biscuit. i am always the one 'testing' her cookies. but this time different, since i have promised my 3rd auntie from father side, so this time i had to keep my promise and the cookies need to make by myself. firstly i thought it will be difficult, cause i am those kind of person do not stand on dirty stuff especially those work will make my hand dirty. however, i have done it with my mother helps. And it is looks a bit ugly but is very delicious. first, prepare 300g flour, 200g planta, 50g 'serbuk' sugar and 2 spoon small chocolate chips. then? [my secret recipe, ask me if wanna try to make. haha] here is the picture, my cookies not pretty but delicious. just finish putting chocolate on it. my cookies~ anyways, my brothers heard that i am baking so he also do some, but his cookies look nicer and prettier. only can blame that i am not creative enough. he did orange and strawberry flavour cookies. ...