emotional?

new semester start, i have already 20 years old and enter my second years degree. starting of third semester making me feel nervous and lost. everyone start to have their own dreams to achieve, choosing different ways. and i am the one stand still at the same place, am i missing someone? not willing to let go? or i am just do not know where should i go? No, since i am was form 4 i have planned my future well, i can definitely confirm where i should go and what i going to do. Correct, i have already understand that each semester forward, it become more difficult and confusing. however, i knew i am weak and helpless even though how much i have done. life never easy for me, but every times when i feel depress and tension i would make myself feel better by assuming that might be someday soon i am the most successful among all my friend, it sounds funny. but it really make me feel better, because i know it was really funny and i cannot ignore this joke! families, getting older and supportive; friends, getting further and independant; me, getting lost and worst.