Choices……

it was once upon a long time i did not update my blogs, and today i am get motivated to updates because of a new friend that i knew through facebook. Curiosity drawing me to view or so called stalk the blogs, and hence my interests of blogging get motivated. for my life phase of working, it was started 2 years and 2 month ago i guess. And it have been long time that i ignore my blog, or i should say that i even forgot that i have a blogs. == Anyways, time still running. So do i, every second it passing, i m struggling like a fish on the land to get better opportunity, better life and searching for a someone that match me to spend her life together with me forever. Supposedly thing should go according to what i am planned and as what i expected. Somehow, the situation has changed as where i cannot make up my mind where should i go and what should i do, thus i only have to follow my parents advises. i became more loss, as i cannot reach either my friends or my family. the level of thinking, understanding, experiencing, and purpose is too much different, the reliability of them reducing. What i wan to say is, i have no given choices and just have to followed. it doesn't mean i have obey,as one of my best friend said 'dont change for the sake of changing...' ;so am i, i obey for the sake of deny. whatever going to happen and i going to do, its only the matter of time.