I am crazy

Chinese new year just around the corner, my mother also busying on making biscuit. i am always the one 'testing' her cookies. but this time different, since i have promised my 3rd auntie from father side, so this time i had to keep my promise and the cookies need to make by myself. firstly i thought it will be difficult, cause i am those kind of person do not stand on dirty stuff especially those work will make my hand dirty. however, i have done it with my mother helps. And it is looks a bit ugly but is very delicious. first, prepare 300g flour, 200g planta, 50g 'serbuk' sugar and 2 spoon small chocolate chips. then? [my secret recipe, ask me if wanna try to make. haha] here is the picture, my cookies not pretty but delicious. just finish putting chocolate on it. my cookies~ anyways, my brothers heard that i am baking so he also do some, but his cookies look nicer and prettier. only can blame that i am not creative enough. he did orange and strawberry flavour cookies. ...

last monday Queenie, hui san and de yang come to visit me, it was really so suprise to me. however i did made them dissapointed, because i am was so stupid and unable to handle the situation well. it was my fault, as bentong people i do not know much about it. then i go back to melacca at saturday and i reached there on about 5 hours journey. it was not fun at all when going back because the day keep raining and spoilt my mood. however, today i have come to de yang house to stay overnight we will celebrate de yang and mun yi birthday together. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DE YANG AND MUN YI O~

after we do our best in finals, it have come to holidays. 3 month holidays, it is a lot. 3 months time can use to be finish 1 semester. however, i going back to my home and i need to survive 3 months without any internet access again. disappointment are filling my heart now and follow by boredom soon.

final exam is only less than 48 hours from now. however, i am still on relax mood. a few day passed, i have promised to teach my friend and help in revision but after all i do not think i help much. it was because lot unexpected factors and i had sick. just feel like want to faint and flu. it was strange that i totally not stress at all with final exam especially i got one final public relation assignment to due within 36 hours. i am lost myself i think.

attention!!! this is not an article about who i do not like, it is about who am i. in my lifetime, i have a lot of friend, they all have their own way of thinking and belief. it is highlighted here, in the real world, there are none of us are wrong, it is just the matter how u accept their way of behaves. some of the criteria i do not like about some of my friends: 1. those who action come before thinking 2. backstabber 3. blackmailer 4. selfish-er 5. trouble maker 6. friendship "user" 7. rights abuser 8. copy cats it is common, because i believe most of us do not like to have those kind of friends. and it is unavoidable and cannot be ignore that i also have few of my friends, is so. but i will never reject to be friend with them, i have try to change them, but it seems like no influence at all. at the moment, i will only choose to avoid them and less contact with them just to self-protect.i have no choices it is because once upon a time, i experience it. i hurts lot. do anyo...

last night i having buffey at Yuen, which organized by Neway for Neway staff. i take a lot of stuff to eat, especially chicken, those take and BBQ. i have ate whole plate, but is ok on that day, now only i feel so not well and hot inside. i also do not know why, but at the moment, i suddent have a thought. the thought is how good if got someone here to take care of me, for a long time ago i loss those feels. sometimes my friend told there are someone sure worried about me, is that possible? i do not think so. so sad about it, i knew what you thinking now, i honestly tell you that, they do not. it is hard to tell the whole stories. haiz... what i know for the moment is that i am very ill, until sleeping on the bed and blogging now. but who care? ^^ world is so real when other found that you are useless. they will no more sympathy or smiling when you are nothing for them.

for almost a month i only informed by my mom only a moment ago that my dad has injured when he is working. today my mom call me, and told me that my dad is recovered, i sudden feel so sad and useless. as a son, it is my responsible to concern about my parents, but it is almost a month! after a month only i know that my dad injured!? so funny, all is my fault. i am suppose to take care of my parents, wish that i can finish study asap so i can take care of my parents.